Extraordinary Me.

2011-07-13T01:36:00.003+08:00

Post #350.

I realised I'm actually a happier man now, may be poorer, but, I mean, I feel happier. :) Just put away the money issues, put away all the big big wow dreams that I have. I am happier. I think, I've come to accept that, some things in life just cannot be forced. Jobs, and everything. Much as I aim for perfection, things do not operate in the same fashion in reality. So might as well, just go do everything with a happier attitude, not thinking about anything else when you do things. It does make one feel much better, and now I suddenly do feel better.

Standing by the window, looking at the stars. The stars in Singapore, actually do shine. It's just the lights from all the pigeon holes that's always hiding them. Just like life, many beautiful things in life are always hidden. Take a step back, cast aside everything. Life's beautiful. <3

2011-07-07T05:03:00.003+08:00

前途一片黑暗，根本都看不见未来的3个月我能够成就什么。仿佛像一只迷失的羔羊，在浩瀚无边的草地上，左右徘徊，找不到正道的光芒。这就有如我现在的人生，迷失了自己，迷失了志愿，犹如从悬崖掉了下来，一直跌，一直跌，却又没跌到谷底，因为，悬崖之后不过就是个无底洞。。

失落，迷失，绝望，贫困，难道这就是对于我这小小的人生惟有的形容词吗？我好像并没有想象中的那么特别，不过就是个穷书生。好像每个在路上行走的凡人，我似乎感觉得到，我已经不自觉地成为那幅画面里的一颗小不点，即使少了我这一点，也不过如此。

从小，抱着好多好多的理想与抱负，总觉得有一天，我将能够一一的实现，现实并非如此。现实是残酷的，现实是不公平的，现实是无情的，现实不过就是一个爱戏弄人的工具。梦，终究会醒过来。但是，迷失，就一定能走出康庄大道吗？

混乱，不是三言两语就能够形容得出来的。混乱是一种感觉，是一种失去自我，失去重心，让人招架不住的奇特幻觉。试图体验“混乱”，全世界都在旋转，唯独自己停留着，看着繁忙的街头，拥挤的人群，不断地在面前走过。而自己，却只愣在中央，不知去向。我现在，就是有那种感觉。

钱，虽非万能，但却万万不能。我承认，我爱喝酒，我爱购物，我爱名牌，我爱享受。但是，一切的一切都附带着价格，而我的银行户头，却不能成全我的欲望。一天一天地在减少，我感觉得到压力了。我明白，金钱是人用来衡量成功，用来衡量地位，用来衡量各种想得到的比试。与其说钱买得到什么，不如谈谈钱买不到什么。大众答案将会是“爱”，但是我敢大胆的说，那不过是一些爱情理论的屁话。

工作，我正在寻找。无业游民，就是我的职业。但是，我已经感觉腻了，似乎没有人想要凭请我。我又那么差劲吗？我讨厌众人的目光，仿佛都在嘲笑与鄙视着我。连学历比我低，能力比我低的人，都能够找到适当的工作。什么是适当？基本条件在于工资，其次条件为工作，满足感，事业晋升途，工友，环境等。我亲爱的理想工作，你到底到哪儿去了啊？！

仔细想想，迷失，因该就是来于社会对我的否定，否定了我的能力，否定了我的前途，否定了我的理念。这是我的错，哪是社会的错呢？

2011-06-22T01:12:00.001+08:00

Job interview at 10am later. Oh my gawd, I'm so nervous. I guess it's due to not actually having a proper job or a need to go through any interviews in the past. So now, I'll have a stranger go through my resume, and thereafter decide if I'm of any value. Hopefully I get this, then at least I know that I'm worth that 'lil something afterall...

2011-06-04T04:43:00.001+08:00

Where's the accomplishment which I've been working towards?

2011-05-19T21:13:00.003+08:00

Well, I've to agree that it sucks having zero income. Sucks more when none of your applications got replied. Is it me or is it the employment market? What is it that employers are looking for? Ok fine, I'm not of employable quality. So what are the qualities which they look for?

Apparently, I've got no degree. And people out there are only hiring those with degrees. I've only got a diploma, and guess what? People out there think diploma holders are cheap shit. Alright! Point taken. So when you're cheap are you expected to get a lesser load? Answer is, NO. Awww, too bad cause you suck, simple as that. Blame yourself for not getting a degree first before getting a damn job.

How about trading? Hmmmmmm. I think, I'm not cut out for trading. Somehow, but I do not know what is happening. Something is missing. I can't trade for nuts sake. I can't do anything. What can I do? I feel so damn helpless. Yes, I want to study. But the crap is, if I do not find income real soon within the next 1 month, I'll be too broke to study. Yes, No money to study. Things like that are happening, not in Afghanistan, not in Pakistan, nor is it in Nigeria, but yes, fucking hell this is Singapore, and it is happening.

2011-03-11T14:13:00.002+08:00

In the office now, and after 4 mths, I've yet to find any meaning to my work. People look for careers, but apparently what they always eventually get are just jobs. Meaning, dreading to go to the office in the morning and the only goal would be the end of the day.

I'm still in search of my true career, not that I've yet to find any good ones, but more of being sandwiched due to family ties. So who says working for your own family member is better than working outside? Still looking back, it was not such a good choice afterall to commit myself in the first place. Very very bad choice.

Investment banking research job found, but yet to submit applications and stuffs like that. Even if I do, I'll only be able to start in August. 5 months used to be bad in NS, now 5 months seem worst. At least in a bureaucratic environment, nothing happens to small fries like me. Now in a small working environment, everything is being arrowed to me.

*not feeling the least happy bout my working life.

2010-11-28T23:37:00.002+08:00

I'm employed, and it's not a good thing.

Somehow I've got very little job satisfaction, probably because I know it's not what I want. However, everyone has got some circumstances, which is under the "BO BIAN" act, that he/she is left with no choice, but to carry out that action.

I've got no engineering background, and things are looking very tough for me.

Still, I realized one thing, that the services sector is always the best in terms of ROI. Services is something, which I believe is "priceless" on its own. The consumer determines whether the price is worth paying. Take a tax consultant for example; the consultant saves $1m in taxes for a company, even if he charges 30% on the savings, the company would still find that a price worth paying, cause it resulted in the firm paying 70% less in taxes. But on the other hand, a person selling a product worth 10K, how much can he make out of it? even if he makes 50% out of it, someone else would be able to offer a substitutable product at maybe 12K, and there goes the business. Therefore in conclusion, as long as you are in the services sector, you're in for the big bucks.

This boils down to myself, I'm currently working on an FX-modeled product, which is automated. Can I succeed in creating positive returns which would beat the general S&P500 performance? If I can do it, definitely I'm into the big bucks.

So sick and tired of the job, even though I'm just 1 month into it.

I love the days which I spent with my love, and of course not forgetting the Jurong people. Oei all of you should move to the east. Don't always make me travel there to get scriptures. And of course, I'm thinking after exams, every fortnightly we should go for beers. Its a good way of chilling out and to de-stress.

2010-10-24T06:19:00.002+08:00

Is there anyone who can do without, a job? Urgh.

2010-10-21T00:13:00.003+08:00

The market, gives me MCQ questions to answer everyday. Every moment every second every minute.

And the question goes like this, all the time:

Qn #n-th) Now as you can see from the charts, given this situation, what would you do?

a) Buy
b) Sell
c) Do nothing about it

I can safely say that, c) is the most common answer. Because, it only has a neutral effect on the account. But, it is not always the best answer due to this thing in economics called "opportunity costs". So, I cannot be answering c) all the time. So it boils to to a) or b) at times. These are crucial answers. They determine your scorecards. c) simply means I have no idea and there is nothing wrong about not answering the question because you simply do not accumulate scores, that's all.

So this time, I need, 3 consecutive correct answers, which can score me points. I just answered the first, and the buzzer is ticking. I'm have no idea how quick the examiner will take to examine my test script. So I'll just have to wait..

Well, part of the game, isn't it?

2010-10-19T02:19:00.002+08:00

Ok, 2.20am. What the hell am I still doing online? I have totally no idea myself. My body seems to have lost track of time, and I'm screwing up all my hours.

Trading has not been smooth sailing this month. Down by quite a bit, but of course working hard to mend this big hole. It feels as though I'm totally struck by luck, serious. I know I know, all people who lose money in trading claim to be "unlucky". But I mean it when I say that. Some things, are just difficult to be put into words.

Exams are coming soon, in another 4 days. Kind of exciting, I think I know how to do the questions, yet thinking cannot substantiate for any form of results. I'm practicing the questions, but it seems as though I keep doing the same kind of questions. I think it is time for me to start doing the ones which I really feel weak at!

So.. I think I better be off to bed NOW. No joke. I will wake up at 7a.m. and grab some breakfast. Start work at 8! And by work, I do not mean trade, but more of studying. These 2 weeks have been horrendous, literally.

2010-10-18T14:54:00.002+08:00

The number of trades I'm making is catching up with the total number of posts which I have made. The worst part, I'm not seeing substantial profits, after so long. And this is only counting the trades which I have made ever since Clarence's course. Sad eh?

2010-10-14T01:04:00.000+08:00

Never count your chickens til they hatch.

2010-10-13T01:30:00.001+08:00

Nothing's easy in life, even for the simplest things.

2010-10-07T11:03:00.000+08:00

万事具备，只缺东风！

Times are tough.

不就是一个“运”字！

2010-10-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

万事俱备，只缺东风！

2010-09-27T11:16:00.000+08:00

hello! here to say 加油 to youuuuu :D -babylove.

2010-09-26T04:38:00.000+08:00

Very very long story. In any case, it just sums up to stress as the final answer. Sucks. I hate this feeling when it gets out of my comfort zone.

2010-09-17T01:22:00.001+08:00

Somehow nowadays I feel very drained out. Everyday, it feels as though I've got a lot to accomplish. But at the end of the day, I ask myself in the mirror, what have I been busy with? What have I achieved? The answer always seem to be the same.

Nothing. Nothing at all.

2010-09-14T23:58:00.001+08:00

If not for the spikes, it would have been 2 more break even trades instead of 2 losing trades.

2010-09-14T09:31:00.001+08:00

seriously damn sad urgh. eurjpy dropped back, and my S/L was really the turning point.

2010-09-11T06:45:00.001+08:00

I love free trades. hearts.

2010-09-08T01:36:00.001+08:00

Angry. Hurt once, twice, then paralyzed when the third chance comes along. Now it is flying, without me.

2010-09-07T23:21:00.001+08:00

All of a sudden it feels as though I am playing games only. Trying to beat the high score. Lol.

2010-09-07T23:02:00.001+08:00

Not once. Twice.

2010-09-07T04:44:00.003+08:00

I kept thinking that its a long way to go before target is hit, then I realized, its just another 3 more good trades. So I can take my time to decide on the trades. This week looks dry to me though! :(

2010-09-07T00:39:00.001+08:00

Good job Bo. Keep it up. :) 323 more pips to go :)

2010-09-02T04:34:00.002+08:00

I just went through the procedures of setting up a proper fund, and now it seems like, there are lots of administrative procedures to go through. Furthermore, to hit a substantial amount of investment capital, time is one very crucial factor.

After researching through the internet, I realized that I am walking in the foot steps of a hedge fund manager, which is good. Now I've clarified my doubts on most issues, main one being, I can't set up a private limited, but instead a Limited Partnership (LP). Lots of documentations to be done. Urgh.

Can I really do it?

2010-08-31T00:01:00.000+08:00

Well, month of August 2010, SUCCESS! :)

For once, my target is finally met.

2010-08-26T01:24:00.004+08:00

Finally, 2 more working days in camp. The feeling is great, yet brings about a kind of uncertainty. The things which I'm going to embark on feels so gray, I'm not sure what lies ahead for me, but all that I know is that I am going to give it all out.

3 months is the time limit. After which I would be able to easily determine if self sustainability is possible. Welcome to the world of stress, MISTER NG.

Can I actually start averaging 20% to 30% per month? That is the green level which I have to keep. Anything lower, things would get really tough. Living on bread and water doesn't sound too good. Urgh.

Of course, there are other choices which I have for back ups, but definitely, nobody likes having to fall back on back ups as it only means one thing, FAILURE.

2010-08-19T01:28:00.003+08:00

Forgot to mention, trading seems to be looking good now. Be it 风水 or whatever, so long as things are smooth and I'm satisfied with it, I'm cool.

2010-08-19T01:28:00.001+08:00

Racial harmony. Grrr.

2010-08-17T18:44:00.003+08:00

Well I kind of got bored and started randomly talking to some friends on MSN. Then I realised, everyone is talking about how they aspire to start businesses.

Frankly speaking, starting businesses does not require much academic qualifications, or rather it totally does not require any. However, the people whom I talked to all either graduated from university or are currently pursuing a degree. Their rationale of studying is simple: a back up plan.

Thoughts started coming into my head, if that is the case, was there a need to even study so hard in the first place? So I looked back into the mirror, and I saw myself, being one of them, who needed a back up plan. Yes it totally makes sense to have one, but how many are working hard towards devoting their soul to doing it? I would not rule out that they are serious about it, but is it worth the effort to risk time and precious resources on starting one business?

Consider the amount of effort one took to get a good class degree, and having a chance to place themselves in a good paying job. It is very controversial how one would work hard so as to be able to gain comfort, then relegate themselves back into the lowest life forms by having to slog it out with every other human being out there who did not have a choice but to start and run a business.

I, for one, know I do not have a choice. Even with a degree, I would have to put in exceptional efforts to further enhance my academic qualifications before I could match the other hardworking students out there. Hence, I had to choose my path differently. For them, they feel that a business is one which would allow them to generate extraordinary income which a typical job would not get them.

Now the question is: how typical is typical? They are able to command incomes of S$6k to S$10k. By putting aside everything, they would then have to risk forgoing an annual income of approximately S$50k, so that they would be able to make twice or thrice that amount. We all understand for all business start-ups, that in the first year, the likelihood of one making enough profits to make up for the loss of income is not that high, what more aiming to make even more than what they used to receive. This excludes lowly educated non-professionals which do not command a salary of S$5k or more.

I understand my limitations when it comes to being a white collared employee. I'm no scholar, with employers not being able to recognise my efforts despite how hard I may work, because there would be some smart scholar out there, who could easily outshine me. Hence, I have to start my own empire. What about the rest who are able to compete with the "scholars"? If starting a business was that simple, there wouldn't be any employees out there.

Everyone has a dream of their own to pursue. But, a dream is, nothing but a dream. If visualisation doesn't work, don't even think about banking on it. Much to lose, little to gain. Its a game of high risk low returns with odds all against you.

I'm not trying to discourage the hopeful entrepreneurs out there, just, do some thinking before embarking on things which could end up setting you back for years, and then coming to light only when it becomes all too late.

If the flame in you is strong enough, make sure you stick to the very one idea, start young, think big, and most importantly, STICK TO IT.

2010-08-17T13:42:00.000+08:00

Wa feel so proud of myself. Figured out some stupid excel formula. Whee. I'm beginning to love the use of the spreadsheet so much. Can calculate anything seriously.

2010-08-02T00:41:00.001+08:00

Wa.

Windows 7 not easy to use.

Grr.

2010-07-25T03:23:00.000+08:00

"Endless Love" - Lionel Richie & Diana Ross

My love,
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's bright

My first love,
You're every breath that I take
You're every step I make

And I
(I-I-I-I-I)
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do...

And your eyes
Your eyes, your eyes
They tell me how much you care
Ooh yes, you will always be
My endless love

Two hearts,
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun

Forever
(ohhhhhh)
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love
Oh, love
I'll be a fool
For you,
I'm sure
You know I don't mind
Oh, you know I don't mind

'cause you,
You mean the world to me
Oh
I know
I know
I've found in you
My endless love

Oooh-woow
Boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom, booom
Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom

Oooh, and love
Oh, love
I'll be that fool
For you,
I'm sure
You know I don't mind
Oh you know
I don't mind

And, yes
You'll be the only one
'cause no one can deny
This love I have inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love
My love, my love
My endless love

2010-07-06T07:05:00.000+08:00

TEKONG HERE I COME!

*p.s. I love my wifey a lot a lot :)

2010-06-23T21:04:00.002+08:00

I know I have not been updating diligently, but it was more of I was too busy. Call that an excuse, but yes, I'll do it really soon...

BRB!

2010-05-31T21:33:00.001+08:00

Stupid shoe got no discount. Not buying until I find a cheaper one. Grr.

2010-05-30T03:54:00.002+08:00

Review of Emotions Throughout Trading Week

This week has been pretty disastrous for me in both FX and stocks. However as this entry is more of solely dedicated to my FX, I would avoid touching on what happened to the stocks. As you know, I do set for myself monthly targets to meet, and for a start, I'm setting it at a rate of 15% per month. And of course, at the beginning of this week, I was very much short of the target rate and became very anxious about it. Being up only 2.4% at the start of the week with only 6 more trading days to go, this got me very tensed up. 12.6% to be met in 6 days, that means at least 2.1% daily on the average! It sure sounds like some HYIP, but nope, this is real trading: me against the market.

7 trades executed in total, which is so totally crazy. 2 are still running so I'd be keeping it away for now (I understand I did say I wouldn't keep trades over the weekends, but it seems like I'm beginning to break the rules which I had initially set for myself), of the 5 remaining, 1 had resulted in breakeven, with the other 4 all bagging losses. After much reviewing, I was certain of one thing, it became like this because of the targets I had set. Having targets is nothing bad, there's also nothing wrong forcing yourself to hit targets set by yourself, however, I emphasize, "force trading" when there is nothing significant happening is out of the game plan. And yes, I broke that crucial rule.

First trades entered for the week were EUR/JPY and EUR/USD. Both had signals. However, I do feel that it was pretty clear that EUR/USD was still in a downtrend. And I did also mention in the previous week that I was biased towards shorting this pair that going long on it. Guess what happened? I went against my own plan and went long on it. Of course, I got stopped out. Something more consoling, the concurrent trade in EUR/JPY was the only no-loss trade for the week. It was a good thing I protected my capital the moment I saw the high hit CLOSE to the level that I had in mind. It sometimes really is a good thing not to be too determined about prices.

Next, it was a forced trade in AUD/USD. I had fell asleep the night when the signal came in. After waking up, prices had already fallen 80+ pips. As I badly needed some profits to cover for the previous loss in EUR/USD, I had decided to set a pending order on that pair. Anyone ever told you that bad things always came quicker than the good ones? I got stopped out soon after, in that very same day, and prices never looked back after which. This was clearly a big mistake: I always told people that there's no point setting a limit order if prices have fallen way too much, reason being if prices could go up that much to trigger that order, then it probably could go even higher. Now, here I am, not practicing what I preach.

This group of trades were entered in an unconventional manner: Over the phone. Short EUR/USD, EUR/JPY and GBP/USD. I was quite sure, going short was definitely a correct move, however, it seems like the timing was wrong. Prices had decided to surge much faster than before. EUR/USD and EUR/JPY were stopped out, and later retraced back lower than prices where I had shorted. Yes, damn it. So, can this be classified as luck? Or did I just ask for it, because it was a Friday. I guess, there's no fixed answer to that. Glad thing is, GBP/USD is still surviving, somewhat.

To touch on the 7th trade entered, it is actually an AUD/USD trade entered at 12am on Friday. Meaning, there were only 4 hours left before the market closed. And, I entered. What was going on in my head? "I need the damn profits, or else, I'm screwed cause I have failed to at least stay in the black." So now, at the end of the week, I'm down approximately 6.7%+, how is it compared to being up 2.4% at the start of the week instead? I would definitely want the latter, but since it has already happened, write statement lor.

Next week also means, the start of a new month is approaching, on a Tuesday. So let's see if anything would happen to my weekend trades on Monday. Gap up? Gap down? Whatever, seriously.

2010-05-26T02:49:00.003+08:00

Below are some quotes which I found that were quite useful for not only myself, but for everyone else who are struggling with one thing or another. Enjoy!

"On the mountains of truth you can never climb in vain: either you will reach a point higher up today, or you will be training your powers so that you will be able to climb higher tomorrow."
Friedrich Nietzsche

"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no help at all." Dale Carnegie

"Some men give up their designs when they have almost reached the goal; While others, on the contrary, obtain a victory by exerting, at the last moment, more vigorous efforts than ever before." Herodotus

"Success seems to be connected with action. Successful men keep moving. They make mistakes, but they don't quit." Conrad Hilton

"Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another." Walter Elliott

"A leader, once convinced that a particular course of action is the right one, must....be undaunted when the going gets tough." Ronald Reagan

"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland

2010-05-26T02:26:00.002+08:00

Stocks have been extremely volatile. Urgh. Lost quite a bit of money there! OUCH! Oh well. And I've got to hit my monthly target for my FX. Seriously, lots of stress present now.

And one thing to clarify, which I had realised. People like to classify traders as people with spare cash, to lose that is. But, one thing for sure, traders trade, because of one simple reason: No money that's why need to trade. Face it man, people who has enough, will see no reason why they should add on stress to their lives for the small sum of money.

2010-05-24T00:02:00.002+08:00

Happy 22nd Birthday to my Wifey! Love you <3

2010-05-20T20:19:00.002+08:00

Finally, first time RSO after being posted to Chong Pang since Feb'09. And, I only had 1 day MC. Oh well, don't complain. It still felt like a good break from NS, allowing myself to feel more refreshed and less tensed up. After eating the medicine, I ended up sleeping the whole afternoon away, and yet I still feel pretty lethargic. I guess, when you are sick, as in really sick, you just feel like staying at home and not going anywhere else. So probably those people who take MCs and still get caught for not staying at home, ain't really that sick afterall.

2010-05-18T23:42:00.001+08:00

First time in my life

踩到狗屎

Literally.

2010-05-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

Stress like shit.

Sick like fuck.

2010-05-15T14:22:00.004+08:00

Review of Emotions throughout the Trading Week
I am officially starting this review every Saturday after the end of a trading week, to review my own psychological state and emotional state after each week.

This week was a week of ups and downs, with high volatility in the financial markets. I had completed 4 trades this week, with 1 profit, 1 breakeven and 2 losses. This is definitely not an excellent score, however, I was still glad that the profiting trade was big enough to cover for the losses.

EUR/USD was the first trade which I entered for the week. Since last week after the big drop, I was pretty certain that this pair was in a bearish mode. It so happened that the pair had gapped up and further retraced up to my Fibonacci level, which I then proceeded to go short on it. The trade was held over a period of 4 days and prices kept getting rebounded before it could hit my target profit. Hence on Thursday morning which I woke up especially early, I decided to just manually exit the position when it was 20 pips away from my target as I was reluctant to risk my full profit for another mere 20 pips. Eventually prices had bashed through my target profit price, but I was still satisfied with the good amount of profit which added close to an 8% increase in my account size.

USD/SGD was the next trade entered 4 hrs later than the former. This was the first time I had entered this pair using this method. However, prices were moving extremely slow and I totally hated the feeling of this. Hence, I quickly moved my stop to entry after prices started to be in my favour which matched the risk I undertook. Soon after, prices had became choppy again and I was feeling kind of frustrated, seriously hoping that I get stopped out to end all the anxiety. So it happened. No losses incurred for this trade; that was the good news.

GBP/USD was the 3rd trade entered this week on Friday after I took PM OFF from camp. On the way back home (reaching), my mother phoned me and signaled to me a potential trade forming up (EUR/USD). So, I rushed home feeling excited and thinking that this would probably be the trade to end this trading month with a big bang. After checking through all signals, I confirmed everything was fine and decided to just go ahead. However, plans do backfire and nothing is fool proof. Congratulations on being stopped out, just below 2 hrs into the trade and I was out with a 75 pip loss. (Summary of thoughts and feelings together with the GBP/JPY trade)

GBP/JPY was the other trade entered simultaneously with the GBP/USD trade. It had indicated good signal and I really thought it was going to be a winner. However, similarly, JPY had sudden strength and things turned, pulling my winnings to a mere overall 6.36% for the month from the initial 10.66% for the month. Devastated, yes, that was the feeling. But, of course, the fighting spirit is still there. Being optimistic and confident about my own trading, I believe that any trades lost can be earned back, all it takes is time. The GBP/USD and GBP/JPY trades have managed to get me back to basics, which is to only initiate trades from Mondays to Wednesdays, which would allow enough time for prices to move enough in my favour toward my targets, and also to prevent weird moves on Thursdays and Fridays such as profit taking or sudden sell-downs. "This is a short swing. This is a short swing. This is a short swing." Yes, that is the reminder I have to give myself, and the trades have taught me a painful 4.3% lesson.

Outlook for next week would probably still be the same, long USD on weakness. So, I've got to be a patient camper/sniper.

2010-05-10T22:44:00.002+08:00

我突然间想要用中文打这篇日记。。。

年轻真好，年轻没烦恼。就说，我多么希望我还年轻！或许，我会做出很多不同的选择，但是，过去的就让它过去。唯一不变的，应该就是不管怎样，我都会非常的爱钱！

好多好多的梦想，理想，抱负，要去实现。我够时间吗？我是不是在为自己施加太大的压力呢？老实说，我自己也不懂。我只知道，若现在不往前冲，将来的负担多了，就不会有像现在的冲刺力以及意志力不断地在拼搏。

现在的我，虽然不像一般的22岁，但是，总有一天，他们就会了解，为什么他们不会像我这样的30岁了！

加油吧！

2010-05-07T17:16:00.000+08:00

lol. stupid computer glitch last night. wonderful feeling of balls squeezing.

2010-05-07T02:16:00.002+08:00

Frankly speaking, I feel so damn stressed up.

Updates on my FX performance for the week:

1. AUD/USD closed with net loss of 88 pips.
2. USD/JPY closed with net profit of 197 pips.

Net for the week: +2.85%

Problem comes in here, stocks are having a major sell off now. And the shares I'm holding, fucked up, seriously.

I've totaled up the potential net loss I'd face if things continue this way with stocks selling off later in the day: a S$915 loss. I admit, this is a serious case of complacency with entry that had minimal confirmation, unlike what I did in the past. Hefty price to pay for a lesson like this. But, what's done, cannot be undone. So I've got to suck it up and take the loss, if I really am left with no choice. Always pays to be more prudent, isn't it?

The reason why I am not sleeping at this point of time? Feeling very stressed up. The outlook on the FX market actually reflects what happens in the stock markets. And there's a big big sell down. I wonder what is going to happen tomorrow seriously. So much to lose, URGH.

2010-05-06T00:22:00.001+08:00

For that split second when I clicked the button, I must be nuts!

2010-05-05T22:31:00.002+08:00

More additions to my stocks portfolio. So now the current holdings as follows:

Ezra - 3 lots
Capitaland - 2 lots
ST Eng - 3 lots

Stress level indicator: F*CKING HIGH.

2010-05-03T00:36:00.003+08:00

Why does it feel as though no matter how much I earn its just not enough?

One dollar in, one dollar out, and all feels inevitable.

Tired.

2010-04-30T12:56:00.002+08:00

Updates Updates Updates:

1. FX fund is currently -10.4% from the previous -25%+, which means I recovered most of it this month.

2. Hit rate is maintained at a good level, with only 3 losses so far out of the 14 trades executed excluding the current running trade; which makes the hit rate a whopping 78.6%.

3. I've sold off my shares in Wing Tai Holdings and Capitaland at no loss.

4. I've just sold my stakes in Genting Singapore PLC at a profit.

5. I've just bought stakes in Ezra Holdings.

2010-04-28T20:28:00.003+08:00

Updates on my trading for the month:

1. FX fund is currently -8.8% from the previous -25%+, which means I recovered most of it this month.

2. Hit rate is maintained at a good level, with only 2 losses so far out of the 13 trades executed excluding the current running trade; which makes the hit rate a whopping 84.6%.

3. I've sold off my shares in Wing Tai Holdings and Capitaland at no loss.

4. I've just bought stakes in Genting Singapore PLC.

2010-04-21T23:41:00.002+08:00

First trading loss of the month just visited me. I guess, to hit a 100% hit rate is very difficult. But, this does not leave me in despair.

3 trades are still running in the race, with nothing to lose. I'm still in the money.

Please let me return to square one this month, I plead.

2010-04-16T21:11:00.002+08:00

Wonderful week, once again.

Performance so far has been pretty decent, and satisfying. Finally, I'm seeing some payoff in the hard work for the past few years. However, this does not allow me to turn cocky, the market would still punish traders who do not work hard for it.

So far last week I was up approximately 5.2%, then this week another close to 5.3%. Finally, the fund is meeting expectations. However, I've still got one hurdle to clear: Restore all the lost capital and bring it back to brink. Yes, that is right. So I guess, working hard is still a must until real money starts rolling in again?

2010-04-15T22:23:00.001+08:00

Can I confess that, I'm a very stressed young adult?

2010-04-15T20:53:00.003+08:00

Finally managed to watch the show "Wall Street (1987)". Really cool show. Especially Michael Douglas who acted as this super rich guy in the show Gordon Gekko. Below were some really nice quotes from him in the show:

Gordon Gekko: What's worth doing is worth doing for money.

Gordon Gekko: I don't throw darts at a board. I bet on sure things. Read Sun-tzu, The Art of War. Every battle is won before it is ever fought.

Gordon Gekko: It's all about bucks, kid. The rest is conversation.

The male lead in the show had 1 best quote as follows:

Bud Fox: There's no nobility in poverty.

Last but not least, the very very best was still Gekko speaking up at one of the AGMs:

Gordon Gekko: Teldar Paper, Mr. Cromwell, Teldar Paper has 33 different vice presidents each earning over 200 thousand dollars a year. Now, I have spent the last two months analyzing what all these guys do, and I still can't figure it out. One thing I do know is that our paper company lost 110 million dollars last year, and I'll bet that half of that was spent in all the paperwork going back and forth between all these vice presidents. The new law of evolution in corporate America seems to be survival of the unfittest. Well, in my book you either do it right or you get eliminated. In the last seven deals that I've been involved with, there were 2.5 million stockholders who have made a pretax profit of 12 billion dollars. Thank you. I am not a destroyer of companies. I am a liberator of them! The point is, ladies and gentleman, that greed, for lack of a better word, is good. Greed is right, greed works. Greed clarifies, cuts through, and captures the essence of the evolutionary spirit. Greed, in all of its forms; greed for life, for money, for love, knowledge has marked the upward surge of mankind. And greed, you mark my words, will not only save Teldar Paper, but that other malfunctioning corporation called the USA. Thank you very much.

2010-03-31T23:05:00.004+08:00

Finally a profiting month befalls me, breaking the curse of losses. Gonna take a short break til next week though its only Wednesday today. A 2-day break isn't too bad for one month's worth of work and stress, right?

2010-03-30T21:47:00.001+08:00

TRADING
Approach it as a challenge.
Confront it as a puzzle.
Play it like a game.
Treat it like a business.

- Trading Day By Day, F.H. Goslin

2010-03-10T23:25:00.001+08:00

Not trading is also a form of trade.

Nice.

2010-03-10T22:16:00.002+08:00

SIM Open House this Saturday.

Wow.

2010-03-08T22:48:00.004+08:00

Apparently, the shares are doing pretty well. I'm protected for my OCBC now, and my DBS is up. Tomorrow I'll most likely be purchasing UOB. Cool portfolio eh? Total valuation at 1 lot each: S$41.1K.

Is this beginner's luck or pure cool analysis?

Now, my FX is totally F***ed up. Nothing is going right. Plus, I realised I DO HAVE A CONSCIENCE. How nice. Kind of found out this amazing fact when I was typing my investor report for my clients. The remorseful feeling kept building up and I kept asking myself why am I putting in so much effort for something which has yet to give me fruitful returns. I almost teared when mom told me "I can see the amount of effort you're putting in". My reply was "Yes, I've never put in so much effort in anything before in my whole life". Which, was so damn f-ing true.

For the very first time, I'm being rewarded with nothing but disappointment after effort was put in. And, the feeling sucks, big time. Maybe, this is what people would often refer to as "Growing Up".

2010-03-08T02:19:00.001+08:00

Found a course which I kind of like. However it requires a pretty high cut off point. Hopefully they tell me I have a high chance of getting in, otherwise there's probably no point in wasting the 65 bucks applying. Sighs.

2010-02-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

Define bad luck.

The feeling of heartache.

2010-02-18T19:37:00.001+08:00

Is the losing streak back?

2010-02-13T03:07:00.002+08:00

AHHH first losing trade of the month today! 3% of equity gone. GRRR. I've been thinking about the "new" method mathematically. It wouldn't make sense still. So, I shall just close off ALL instead of just closing half since the chances of taking profit is significantly lesser than the chances of me breaking even at the end of the day. So now it is 1 : 1 trading! OMG. Stress will kick in soon lol.

2010-02-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

$8.470. SWEET.

on top of...

PROFITABLE TRADING SO FAR. SCREW BREAKEVENS! I SHALL BREAKEVEN NO MORE MUAHAHA.

2010-02-08T00:27:00.002+08:00

Yes, one thing which made me happy for the week.

"你是不是新加坡人？"

The canteen uncle asked me that. In a way I felt quite glad he asked me after knowing the reason.

"你的口音不像。"

That was the reason.

There's something with our mother tongue these days. By speaking properly, people think you are probably not local. Is this a "特色" or simply a flaw in majority of the Chinese here?

2010-02-05T00:39:00.001+08:00

omg. market steep sell down. I'm in for some trouble now. expecting close to a 2% gap down tmr. URGH

2010-02-04T18:57:00.001+08:00

1 lot @ $8.330. Urgh. Today closed at $8.250.

2010-02-04T06:18:00.002+08:00

I guess, it is a potential good buy. First stock I'm buying in my life. Lol.

OCBC

2010-02-03T23:56:00.002+08:00

Seriously, nothing much to blog about. But all I want to post is: Should I buy OCBC?

LOL. Stupid question to post here. No one will reply that question, especially when I want that answer in less than 9 hours' time.

And yes yw, I don't just post on weekends. I normally do it then only cause its the only time when somehow or rather I'm at home and there are no other TV shows worth watching cause all are repeated from the weekday ones. (don't ask me why I don't go out, because there's no restriction on staying home on weekends + I no friends). hahahaha. Yes in case you didn't know, I can manage to watch TV on weekday nights because of one reason also, cause I don't go out. So basically, nowadays I just stay home, or drive down to wifey's place, to do the same things I do at home. Only lovely difference is, there's her around at her place. :)

Since I already typed so much, might as well continue with the post. Last month was negative, again. 3rd month of losses. However the only good thing was, the losses were much lesser. I would deem it negligible. So this month once again, I've set new goals, more conservative than usual. I hate breakevens, so I shall reduce them, not remove them.

So one final question again: Should I buy OCBC?

URGH.

2010-01-03T22:24:00.002+08:00

2010

1. Make my first S$20K plus 1x Rolex Submariner
2. Maximize clients' profits
3. Slim to 75kgs

2009-12-15T00:05:00.002+08:00

Stress, is something which everyone would face in life. All aspects of life could and would bring about this word. There's no way we could avoid this, but it is how we handle it that matters.

Of course, relating it back to myself, the main stress which I have comes from finance, which triggers the secondary stress which is from trading. Financial "woes" such as shortage of cash, is common amongst many, but to deal with it in a correct way is not what many are able to do. People of my age are succumbing to gambling, something which I feel would bring about more stress into their lives. Some decide to borrow, but that is something which could temporarily solve their problems, but not permanently. For me, I choose a something different. I decide to convert this negativity into something positive which could steer me into heading towards something which I feel is definitely beneficial to my life. Yes, that is trading.

People often talk about stress-free trading, and all the bull shit about how trading can allow you to have a big gain in a small period of time. But friend, let me tell you, this is so NOT TRUE! Trading is not for everyone, and to survive in trading, requires discipline. To make it in trading, requires even MORE discipline. This that I'm talking about, is more than just "trading discipline" like setting your stop losses. This also refers to the amount of effort which you put in daily, just to ensure that you are always in touch and willing to embark on a new learning journey every single day. People might tell me, trading is no different from gambling. But let me ask you, if that was the case, why are fund managers (primary job is still trading), studying so hard for that finance degree, and hoping to ace it so that some hedge fund or some bank would take them in?

The slight bit comes in here. When you study, it shows how willing you are to put in effort into the books. The better your grades, the more effort you put in. This applies to the vast majority of the population throughout the whole world. Don't tell me that so-and-so scores well because he is damn smart; because the higher your education level, the less "aptitude" weighs onto the grades. It all boils down to effort. Face it, that's the ugly truth.

"Geeks" or "Nerds" which we often refer to as for people with extremely good grades
plus no social life, are the people whom you would tell your kids in the future how they should aspire to be like them. Look around you, those who were the so-called "geeks", have actually become the high flyers in the society, whereas people who were the so-called "cool dudes" that partied all the way, appearing in every single "hip" party, are just regular people in the workforce. Most wouldn't have accomplished much in life. I wouldn't say all.

So, at the age of 21, why am I giving myself so much stress? The reason is simple, but not great, it is because I want to be the high flyer. I want to be someone whom people will tell their kids to aspire to be. I am scared of poverty. I am worried that I will end up in the wrong social class. Everyone in life comes with a price tag, and I don't want to be placed with everyone else in the value shop. I want to be labeled as a prime district property. It is all about fortune. People my age are enjoying themselves a lot, but at the expense of? Some work part time, some are just born rich. I choose to valuate my time differently, it beats working at some store earning $6/hr for 10 hrs and after deducting food, traveling and entertainment expenses, you are left with half of it.

Back to the main topic, stress drove me to become better, made me realize life is not as simple as you wish for it to be. Everyone wants to lead a simple life, but is that something society will allow? Probably in a communist country.

2009-12-06T23:22:00.001+08:00

Wa life without baby love sucks. I feel so aimless, for the past few days. Boo.

2009-11-22T02:48:00.003+08:00

Been long since I came back in to blog. Now I'm actually working on a new system to trade. Probably I'll slowly decouple from Clarence's TNT/PIPS system, and trying to move more towards trading off naked charts.

http://www.myfxbook.com/portfolio/bo-pa-trading/7068

The webbie above reflects the demo account which I'm trading off the naked charts, purely using price action. Started on 19/11/09 and til date, 2 trades completed, both trades profited. Already up 13.8% on the account. I'm going to demo trade this all the way until end of the year. If things go well, I would probably implement this into my live trading and maybe totally cut off trading using TNT/PIPS strategies.

Currently, the investment performance sits at a 2% profit, which I guess is totally unremarkable and I've got to do something about this. However, still staying conservative would be the way I'll do it until I see a breakthrough in the strategy which I'm working on. So if in this period my investors decides to pull out, I'm actually quite alright with it but I guess, so long as I don't lose in that month, they wouldn't make noise about it.

So for now, I shall carry on working on the new system in mind and probably will try to achieve a breakthrough as soon as possible. I might not even wait until next year to exercise the plan, but instead once the returns hit 100% I might just proceed with the plan already.

2009-11-06T12:21:00.003+08:00

王之渙
登鸛雀樓

白日依山盡，黃河入海流。
欲窮千里目，更上一層樓。

Wang Zhihuan
AT HERON LODGE

Mountains cover the white sun,
And oceans drain the golden river;
But you widen your view three hundred miles
By going up one flight of stairs.

[简析]

这首诗写诗人在登高望远中表现出来的不凡的胸襟抱负，反映了盛唐时期人们昂扬向上的进取精神。

前两句写所见。“白日依山尽”写远景，写山。作者站在鹳雀楼上向西眺望，只见云海苍茫，山色空蒙。由于云遮雾绕，太阳变白，挨着山峰西沉。“黄河入海流”写近景，写水。楼下滔滔的黄河奔流入海。这两句画面壮丽，气势宏大，读后令人振奋。

后两句写所想。“欲穷千里目”，写诗人一种无止境探求的愿望，还想看得更远，看到目力所能达到的地方，唯一的办法就是要站得更高些，“更上一层楼”。“千里”“一层”，都是虚数，是诗人想象中纵横两方面的空间。“欲穷”“更上”词语中包含了多少希望，多少憧憬。这两句诗，是千古传诵的名句，它形象地提示了一个哲理：登高，才能望远；望远，必须登高。

这首诗由两联十分工整的对仗句组成。前两句“白日”和“黄河”两个名词相对，“白”与“黄”两个色彩相对，“依”与“入”两个动词相对。后两句也如此，构成了形式上的完美。

鹳雀楼，旧址在山西永济县，黄河中的一个小岗上，后被洪水冲没。沈括《梦溪笔谈》中记载：“鹳雀楼三层，前瞻中条（山名）下瞰大河。”可见冲没是宋以后的事了。

2009-11-06T11:48:00.000+08:00

Sadly, I realised I belong to 月光族.

月光族 = 月底 + 钱花光 + 族群

Every month same issue. Poor money management on my personal finance.

2009-10-29T20:08:00.000+08:00

钱不够用
作词:梁智盈作曲:polll koh 编曲:李铠至
钱钱钱不够用
钱钱钱不够用
钱不够用
钱不够用
钱是人人的最爱来狠狠甲拼看麦
每一次都是很迫切
按怎赚赚搁不够开
有了钱你要做什麽
谁敢说不行
没有钱想买衣服
臭臭要想三遍
有些人为了几千块
啊啥咪拢可以
有些人为了要赚钱
don't mind go die
有些人说麦讲ri
他就假好呆
要讲交情讲义气就是讲ri卡实在
为什麽我们突然之间钱钱钱钱不够用
为什麽省吃省用还会钱钱钱钱不够用
为什麽天天都有人说钱钱钱钱不够用
为什麽现在的国家政府也在说钱不够用
钱是人人的最爱来狠狠甲拼看麦
每一次都是很迫切
按怎赚赚搁不够开
有了钱你要做什麽
谁敢说不行
没有钱想买衣服
臭臭要想三遍
有些人为了几千块
啊啥咪拢可以
有些人为了要赚钱
don't mind go die
有些人说麦讲ri
他就假好呆
要讲交情讲义气就是讲ri卡实在
为什麽我们突然之间钱钱钱钱不够用
为什麽省吃省用还会钱钱钱钱不够用
为什麽天天都有人说钱钱钱钱不够用
为什麽现在的国家政府也在说钱不够用
rap→听说你没ri勾爱冒险
拜六跟礼拜去澳门战
蠃胆薄去happy喝给他爽
醒来闪后路当手炼
水查某打拜奶雄爱骗
了ri勾刹没死没善
遇到这种事情是真了然
怪自己空come勾爱好店
每个人开口都讲钱
到底是谁不要脸
我又不是什麽神仙
你知不知道我需要钱
钱钱钱不够用
钱钱钱不够用
钱不够用
钱不够用

2009-10-29T20:05:00.000+08:00

作词：黄一飞　作曲：黄一飞　编曲：谢继麟

若是我有一百万　一百万　我有一百万　一世人就轻松

无讲无人知　讲到真歹势　吃甲彼呢大汉　搁不曾坐飞机
拼搏彼多年　无车无厝搁无爱人　看人娶某搁做生意　有钱搁有势

若是我有一百万　我要坐飞机　我要游世界HAWAII晒太阳　日本吃寿司
若是我有一百万　我要买车买厝山珍甲海味　啥人卡福气来乎我做某

若是我有一百万　一百万　若是你有欠用钱　开嘴免客气

若是我有一百万　我要坐飞机　我要游世界　意大利饮咖啡　路边吃Spaghetti
若是我有一百万　我要买车买厝买店来收租　闲闲免做工　带狗去散步

若是我有一百万　一百万　若是你有欠用钱　开嘴免客气
若是我有一百万　一百万　十千八千拿去用　免还嘛无问题
若是我有一百万　一百万
念白：朋友啊，你想一百万真多啊！

2009-10-20T00:11:00.002+08:00

One new step up. Now I'm taking in investments already. Phase 1 closed. Total of 4 investors. There's stress, but I'm going to nail it this time round since I figured out trading on my capital only wouldn't get me anywhere.

2009-10-02T17:31:00.003+08:00

Oh my goodness. This month's losses totaled to:

IG: S$560
CMS: US$330 (S$480)

Total Loss: S$1040

No joke man, seriously. I don't quite understand what happened, all I know is that it was a very very very bad month. Sighs.

2009-10-01T14:28:00.001+08:00

Stopped out, again. down $420.

2009-10-01T12:41:00.003+08:00

I had a damn weird dream. I dreamt that I went to China, and caught a tiger, because it was supposed to have a reward of USD 3K or 2K, can't remember. And after which I saw my late granny, which was just as weird cause I was in China, but then after which it was her house (at Aljunied). Then I met a few friends there, and dreamt that I got posted out to a combat vocation, but my duty was to wash cars. Ass.

How could I have been in China, and posted to a combat vocation to wash cars under my gf's block? The weird thing is still, catching a tiger. The tiger was seen pouncing at me, and I used a NET to catch it. Wtf. Totally crazy.

2009-09-30T14:46:00.001+08:00

Apparently, things are not changing for the better. 30th September already, last day of the month, I'm still nett down S$320. Sucks.

2009-09-25T02:07:00.004+08:00

Alright. Been long since I last blogged. Why? Cause I've been having a real bad month so far. Already closing in on the final week of the month, but I'm still net loss on my account. Though it's only down S$200, but who loves losing money. Previous months definitely had been much better. Everyday when I enter trades, I will feel confident, for the first 5 minutes, then all of a sudden I just lose that confidence, and prices will start going against me. Sucks right? Yes it sucks.

This month was kind of special. I decided to not set any targets so as to not have any pressure. And it feels as though it is too late to start setting targets too. Maybe I should start setting now before its too late. So maybe, I should set like, net profit S$500 by the end of next week? Please? Where's the magician in me which starts waving the magical cash wand and start making money? Please come back!!!

I admit, I'm not feeling any pressure on my finances side now, since I've got everything planned out. But, I still want spare cash! It doesn't mean that, "I don't need cash to meet expenses" and "I have extra cash on hand" is the same thing! Who doesn't want to have extra cash! On hindsight, this month is still a considerable tough month, but a lot of mistakes made in the trades I placed. so now to get S$500, I would need to earn 3x 85 pips! 6 trading days to accomplish that task. Doable? YES. 1 good trade per 2 days. Enter with confidence, not with complacency.

Yes, Cash strapped. I want cash!

Random:

yummy yummy rosti!!!

2009-09-22T01:12:00.000+08:00

How does it feel to be kept in the dark? Hmm..

2009-09-14T10:35:00.000+08:00

Nowadays with all the god-damned weird dreams, I can't sleep well. Urgh.

2009-09-11T00:10:00.003+08:00

Waa super tired. Ok after dinner just fell into a short nap very quickly. Guess what I dreamt of? Food: Curry!

So I decided to go decipher the dream, this is what I got:

Curry To see or taste curry in your dream, suggests that you are emotionally sensitive and easily irritable. Alternatively, it refers to your quick-wit, sharpness, and intellect. It may also mean that you feel like you are hot stuff.

Almost can fully agree. Nowadays I'm sensitive over everything.

2009-09-10T15:52:00.000+08:00

I just thought of a new word.

Terrified of being a pauper:

PAUPIFIED.

2009-09-10T15:26:00.002+08:00

Been some time since I last blogged.

Yes, this month, how's performance? So far for the month of September, it has been a "breakeven" month. 3 losses, 5 breakevens, 2 profit. I've got this running trade right now which has a high potential breakeven chance again. No joke, that would make it the 6th this month, if it breaks even. Not funny at all. All the 6a.m. mornings, staring at the 2 monitors, still having a not so smooth sailing run.

I want to close off my IBFX account, when there's enough to buffer the administrative fees for withdrawals. It doesn't make any logical sense to close off a small account which requires 25usd administrative fee when there's only 50usd in it. It's a... "SUAY" account. Every one of my trades which doesn't breakeven, breaks even there. Lousy broker. LOL. At the very least, my IG account has been treated relatively fairly given that it doesn't give me problems related to luck.

"Luck went on a holiday." So who's paying for all of "Luck's" expenses. Me.

2009-08-27T15:30:00.003+08:00

Woke up super early today, in hope to catch a good trade. Ended up I thought it wasn't a good enough trade cause it looked "risky". As a matter of fact, it wasn't that risky, like what I thought it was. My judgement was clouded, by the potential outcome. This is definitely not correct. I should be focused on the decision, not the outcome. The outcome has caused biasness.

I knew I was tight, financially. So when I saw the setup, I told myself I cannot afford to lose even ONE trade. But I was wrong to begin with. Good trades can still result in losing money, bad trades can still result in winning money. But to do it right, focus on getting the good trades and avoid getting into the bad ones. The focus on the outcome for the trade has caused me a chance to save myself for the coming month.

So now, I have to allow this day to end painfully and await for tomorrow morning where I could find a potential entry again, this time, not to be polluted by any other crap.

2009-08-26T16:14:00.002+08:00

Stress. 2 more days.

2009-08-25T23:41:00.004+08:00

计划赶不上变化。

Yes that's right. The plans ain't catching up fast enough with the changes. It's so suffocating. Guess what? Next month ain't even here yet, but I've worked out my forecasted expenses already. S$1095. Yes. No decimal place. S$1095 to support expenses for next month. They would just barely meet my expense, no excess for me to save or whatsoever.

Given the rule of the thumb, expenses should only be 35% of income, looks like it ain't for me.

Yesterday wasn't quite a good start to my trading week. Never had any intraday trades until I had 2 of them consecutively yesterday. A friend was telling me something like," You used to only jump into good trades, seems like you've became more aggressive lately.". I told the friend, its a month end syndrome. Though I never voiced out my target amount for this month, and told myself never to set one for myself except for consistency rate, I think deep down, subconsciously I still have that number in my head. GET THE FXXK OUT OF MY BRAIN!

2009-08-21T03:19:00.001+08:00

Seriously I don't think my brother and his gf loves each other a lot. Just realised his gf actually held a birthday party the other time, and my brother as a bf, wasn't even present.

So random.

2009-08-21T02:30:00.001+08:00

Wow. I just realised, actually I can't sing. :( Been trying to sing a few songs, end up all cannot reach any of the keys. Sucks.

2009-08-20T21:05:00.003+08:00

My 5th swing trade attempt. Seems like the swings ain't working well at all! HOW! If I lose again on this, it would only mean, the profits from the first swing trade, all given back by these 3 losses.. BOO.

2009-08-19T15:57:00.002+08:00

Sian. Stopped out. Why never manual close? =( It's ok, shall move on and look forward to a better trade.

2009-08-19T14:33:00.002+08:00

Entered my 4th swing trade, GBP/USD. All of a sudden, it doesn't look so optimistic. I copied Clarence's entry for this one. And now, I'm around 20 pips away from being stopped out. This looks really really bad. Waste my 80 pips.