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Ng Bo Han
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Wednesday, July 13, 2011 ,
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Post #350.
I realised I'm actually a happier man now, may be poorer, but, I mean, I feel happier. :) Just put away the money issues, put away all the big big wow dreams that I have. I am happier. I think, I've come to accept that, some things in life just cannot be forced. Jobs, and everything. Much as I aim for perfection, things do not operate in the same fashion in reality. So might as well, just go do everything with a happier attitude, not thinking about anything else when you do things. It does make one feel much better, and now I suddenly do feel better.
Standing by the window, looking at the stars. The stars in Singapore, actually do shine. It's just the lights from all the pigeon holes that's always hiding them. Just like life, many beautiful things in life are always hidden. Take a step back, cast aside everything. Life's beautiful. <3Labels: Start Young. Think Big. Stick to It.
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Thursday, July 07, 2011 ,
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前途一片黑暗，根本都看不见未来的3个月我能够成就什么。仿佛像一只迷失的羔羊，在浩瀚无边的草地上，左右徘徊，找不到正道的光芒。这就有如我现在的人生，迷失了自己，迷失了志愿，犹如从悬崖掉了下来，一直跌，一直跌，却又没跌到谷底，因为，悬崖之后不过就是个无底洞。。
失落，迷失，绝望，贫困，难道这就是对于我这小小的人生惟有的形容词吗？我好像并没有想象中的那么特别，不过就是个穷书生。好像每个在路上行走的凡人，我似乎感觉得到，我已经不自觉地成为那幅画面里的一颗小不点，即使少了我这一点，也不过如此。
从小，抱着好多好多的理想与抱负，总觉得有一天，我将能够一一的实现，现实并非如此。现实是残酷的，现实是不公平的，现实是无情的，现实不过就是一个爱戏弄人的工具。梦，终究会醒过来。但是，迷失，就一定能走出康庄大道吗？
混乱，不是三言两语就能够形容得出来的。混乱是一种感觉，是一种失去自我，失去重心，让人招架不住的奇特幻觉。试图体验“混乱”，全世界都在旋转，唯独自己停留着，看着繁忙的街头，拥挤的人群，不断地在面前走过。而自己，却只愣在中央，不知去向。我现在，就是有那种感觉。
钱，虽非万能，但却万万不能。我承认，我爱喝酒，我爱购物，我爱名牌，我爱享受。但是，一切的一切都附带着价格，而我的银行户头，却不能成全我的欲望。一天一天地在减少，我感觉得到压力了。我明白，金钱是人用来衡量成功，用来衡量地位，用来衡量各种想得到的比试。与其说钱买得到什么，不如谈谈钱买不到什么。大众答案将会是“爱”，但是我敢大胆的说，那不过是一些爱情理论的屁话。
工作，我正在寻找。无业游民，就是我的职业。但是，我已经感觉腻了，似乎没有人想要凭请我。我又那么差劲吗？我讨厌众人的目光，仿佛都在嘲笑与鄙视着我。连学历比我低，能力比我低的人，都能够找到适当的工作。什么是适当？基本条件在于工资，其次条件为工作，满足感，事业晋升途，工友，环境等。我亲爱的理想工作，你到底到哪儿去了啊？！
仔细想想，迷失，因该就是来于社会对我的否定，否定了我的能力，否定了我的前途，否定了我的理念。这是我的错，哪是社会的错呢？Labels: Start Young. Think Big. Stick to It.
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Wednesday, June 22, 2011 ,
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Job interview at 10am later. Oh my gawd, I'm so nervous. I guess it's due to not actually having a proper job or a need to go through any interviews in the past. So now, I'll have a stranger go through my resume, and thereafter decide if I'm of any value. Hopefully I get this, then at least I know that I'm worth that 'lil something afterall... Labels: Start Young. Think Big. Stick to It.
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Saturday, June 04, 2011 ,
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Thursday, May 19, 2011 ,
9:13 PM |
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Well, I've to agree that it sucks having zero income. Sucks more when none of your applications got replied. Is it me or is it the employment market? What is it that employers are looking for? Ok fine, I'm not of employable quality. So what are the qualities which they look for?
Apparently, I've got no degree. And people out there are only hiring those with degrees. I've only got a diploma, and guess what? People out there think diploma holders are cheap shit. Alright! Point taken. So when you're cheap are you expected to get a lesser load? Answer is, NO. Awww, too bad cause you suck, simple as that. Blame yourself for not getting a degree first before getting a damn job.
How about trading? Hmmmmmm. I think, I'm not cut out for trading. Somehow, but I do not know what is happening. Something is missing. I can't trade for nuts sake. I can't do anything. What can I do? I feel so damn helpless. Yes, I want to study. But the crap is, if I do not find income real soon within the next 1 month, I'll be too broke to study. Yes, No money to study. Things like that are happening, not in Afghanistan, not in Pakistan, nor is it in Nigeria, but yes, fucking hell this is Singapore, and it is happening.Labels: Start Young. Think Big. Stick to It.
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